Suicide Prevention——–

FORMERLY CRAZY——–

October 9, 2011

“Irrational behavior takes many forms…..” — Al-Anon 12 and 12

My sponsor had my write a list of crazy things I had done as part of my Step 2 work–

STEP TWO:

Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

I was working the Al-Anon program at the time, even though my sponsor would use both A.A. and Al-Anon books when we were together.  MY LIST though, was not the list of an Al-Anon person, crazily attempting to stop someone else from drinking alcohol.  My list was a drunk’s list, about all my blackouts and thefts, and throwing up and peeing on couches–DRINKING INSANITY and mishaps!!!!!!!!

SO OF COURSE I JOINED A.A. IMMEDIATELY AND SWORE OFF ALCOHOL FOR GOOD RIGHT?  No, I’d still mess around in Al-Anon and everywhere else for seven years before I really got sober!!!!!!!!

……. the “merry go-round” called “Denial–” no not the biggest river in Africa–

PEACE!!!!!!!!

 

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Thirty Blog Post Conclusion——–

October 8, 2011

Wow it’s been fun and interesting, there’s a kindle book here, I think; I love the thought that I may be helping others with their low place by expressing songs from mine–

I was at the absolute bottom–WHAT HELPED ME GET OUT OF IT?  The thirty blogs I just wrote should help explain some of my path–

I liked how “women” finally shined in my music blog, I was getting concerned that only men had inspired me!!!!!!!!

Concluding Poem:

“Lines”

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I already wrote this years ago, from

a Santa Barbara motel, so cold

you’d think the inner dome had fallen

like snow, rain to remember, reminding

nights they’re one or two hours

from day, I love today, give me a beat

I LOVE TODAY!!!!!!!!

 ******

I need to produce my hip-hop

songs before long, it’ll be you,

me and eternity, a love that fans the

flame of no more blame!!!!!!!!

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We were alcoholic, nothing more nor

less, now isn’t that LAME?!?!!??!!?!?!??!

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I exclaim to musical beats every melody my

humble heart thinks, get this through

our heads—LORD up above help us now:

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“Life, what a mess, sometimes to figure it

out you gotta be Elliot Ness—”

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Poems, this an’ that we got life in ‘em,

THANK YOU, heavenly Father, God

the one the only Creator——

 **********

Peace, justice and unity, I hope

when God writes his greatest

Poem about reaching Heaven and posts

all his photos….. He tags me…….

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I am alive for one more day.

 ***********

PEACE!!!!!!!!

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MUSIC FOR YOU–

October 7, 2011

Before I turn these blogs into a book for kindle, I need a music posting:)  Need’s a strong word, after “Higher Power,” music is the most important concept for me, as I look back on why I am not dead.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IasCZL072fQ

Dale Bozzio from Missing Persons, c. 1981, awesome, dope and cool, her husband pounding drums, the guitarist with that strange looking guitar, their sound is sweet, metallic, icey, I love it they rock, they are pop and punk, totally unique, fun and in this song go right into the Borges theme I like, “words–” what are they for?  If all complaints could be this beautiful…..

http://www.ilike.com/artist/Bill+Watkins

AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Me, “Billy Blues,” an artist you may knever a’ heard of, this link right now, is tweaked, at least on my computer–the SONGS CAN’T BE PLAYED DARNIT!!!!!!!!  Am working on the problem, stay tuned, and move on to the next for now——–

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PT4-mBAC6KA

MY UNCLE LES MCCANN!!!!!!!! Was married to my Aunt Charlotte once upon  time, I’m so proud of him and that he’s in my family!!!!!!!!* –* “Family are those who do the will of God”–Jesus:)!!!!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKzB6zLNpFg

Sam Cooke and the Soul Stirrers STIRRING MY SOUL!!!!!!!! I discovered this song as I do many songs at the movie theatre——-from the Coen Brothers immortally violent but interesting and sometimes funny: “The Ladylkillers,” a remake of an older movie with OB-wan Kenobe, Alec Guinness!!!!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vjk-JLlGXrM

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THANK GOD IT’S ANY DAY– Here’s SOME ART!!!!!!!!

I love you and I love art, here’s some work I’ve done with my “Paint” program::::::::

 

 

 

 

P                  E                         A                               C                         E!!!     !!!!!!!    !!!!!!!!

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The Tao of LUNA NEGRA, PART 3:)!!!!!!!!

Not-knowing is true knowledge.
Presuming to know is a disease.

When they lose their sense of awe,
people turn to religion.

The Tao is always at ease.
It overcomes without competing

If you realize that all things change,
there is nothing you will try to hold on to.

When taxes are too high,
people go hungry.


Men are born soft and supple;
dead, they are stiff and hard.


As it acts in the world, the Tao
is like the bending of a bow.


Nothing in the world
is as soft and yielding as water.

Failure is an opportunity.

If a country is governed wisely,
its inhabitants will be content.


True words aren’t eloquent——–

–Love, William:)!!!!!!!!PEACE!!!!!!!!

 

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SOMETIMES YOU WIN!!!!!!!!

October 6, 2011

“Sometimes you Win”

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The stars align,

Something yawns it’s loss,

You’re on your way the page has

turned, its seems downhill this

path to the top, you must

admit, easy-riding once you

believe and know it really IS

about the journey, HOW you

play the game—

 ***************

Results are nothing to meddle with,

though when you know you know—

You have the best team, you put

in the work, you are the favorite

get yours—

 **************

The stars align,

you feel fine, Sometimes you win!!!!!!!!

 

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The TAO of Luna Negra, PART TWO:)!!!!!!!!

True mastery can be gained
by letting things go their own way.
It can’t be gained by interfering.

The Master has no mind of her own.
She works with the mind of the people.

[Sylvester above has a boy's name 'cause of the cartoon character; she is a sweet girl, though]

The Master gives himself up
to whatever the moment brings.

Every being in the universe
is an expression of the Tao.

In the beginning was the Tao.
All things issue from it;
all things return to it.


The great Way is easy,
yet people prefer the side paths.
Be aware when things are out of balance.
Stay centered within the Tao.

Whoever is planted in the Tao
will not be rooted up.
Whoever embraces the Tao
will not slip away.

He who is in harmony with the Tao
is like a newborn child.


Those who know don’t talk.
Those who talk don’t know.

If you want to be a great leader,
you must learn to follow the Tao.
Stop trying to control.


If a country is governed with tolerance,
the people are comfortable and honest.


For governing a country well
there is nothing better than moderation


Governing a large country
is like frying a small fish.
You spoil it with too much poking.

When a country obtains great power,
it becomes like the sea:
all streams run downward into it.


The Tao is the center of the universe,
the good man’s treasure,
the bad man’s refuge.

Act without doing;
work without effort.


What is rooted is easy to nourish.
What is recent is easy to correct.
What is brittle is easy to break.
What is small is easy to scatter.

The ancient Masters
didn’t try to educate the people,
but kindly taught them to not-know.


All streams flow to the sea
because it is lower than they are.
Humility gives it its power.

Some say that my teaching is nonsense.
Others call it lofty but impractical.


The best athlete
wants his opponent at his best.
The best general
enters the mind of his enemy.

(whoops that’z not Luna Negra!!!!!!!!)

The generals have a saying:
“Rather than make the first move
it is better to wait and see.
Rather than advance an inch
it is better to retreat a yard.”


(Whoops again!!!!!!!!)

My teachings are easy to understand
and easy to put into practice.


AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!PEACE AND LOVE GO FRIGGIN’ GAUCHOS!!!!!!!!

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THE TAO OF LUNA NEGRA, PART ONE:)!!!!!!!!

Luna Negra is the name I give to our home; Tracy my wife and I have lived here together for just over a year, Tracy for over 10 or 12…….

Our cats are named, Sylvester (above), Ricky, Lucy, and “Kitty–” we still gotta name kitty.

Our dog is named Yodi, our rabits are Bugs and Humper.

I hope you are laughing, here’s the Tao of Luna Negra:

When a superior man hears of the Tao,
he immediately begins to embody it.

http://academic.brooklyn.cuny.edu/core9/phalsall/texts/taote-v3.html#26

The Tao gives birth to One.
One gives birth to Two.
Two gives birth to Three.
Three gives birth to all things.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tao_Te_Ching

The gentlest thing in the world
overcomes the hardest thing in the world.

Fame or integrity: which is more important?
Money or happiness: which is more valuable?
Success of failure: which is more destructive?

http://www.amazon.com/Tao-Pooh-Benjamin-Hoff/dp/0140067477


True perfection seems imperfect,
yet it is perfectly itself.


When a country is in harmony with the Tao,
the factories make trucks and tractors. (?)


Without opening your door,
you can open your heart to the world.


In pursuit of knowledge,
every day something is added.
In the practice of the Tao,
every day something is dropped.
Less and less do you need to force things,
until finally you arrive at non-action.
When nothing is done,
nothing is left undone.

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The TAO of PASADENA, PART III.:)!!!!!!!!

The valley Spirit never dies.

A good traveler has no fixed plans
and is not intent upon arriving.


Know the male,
yet keep to the female

Do you want to improve the world?
I don’t think it can be done.

Whoever relies on the Tao in governing men
doesn’t try to force issues


Weapons are the tools of violence;
all decent men detest them.

The Tao can’t be perceived.
Smaller than an electron,
it contains uncountable galaxies.

Knowing others is intelligence;
knowing yourself is true wisdom.


The great Tao flows everywhere.
All things are born from it

She who is centered in the Tao
can go where she wishes, without danger.


If you want to shrink something,
you must first allow it to expand.


The Tao never does anything,
yet through it all things are done.

The Master doesn’t try to be powerful;
thus he is truly powerful.


In harmony with the Tao,
the sky is clear and spacious

Return is the movement of the Tao.
Yielding is the way of the Tao.

PEACE!!!!!!!!


 

 

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POEM POEM POEM!!!!!!!! Volume 7000!!!!!!!!

October 5, 2011

“Today is a Walk”

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I share the wind between the words,

South is southerly, east is no burden,

Coming out west was intentionally good,

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The poems of footballers and travelers

stick to me, the game is over but I still

feel like winning.

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Gathering around the heat of rain’s sweet

holiday, you flip a switch and together

we warm our hearts, the heat and our

gas bill rise and it’s worth it.

 *************

I hear the game playing again, Luis

Silva of the Gauchos with the game-winner

it plays again and again, the celebration,

the freedom, the joy——–

 ***********

I sigh at Frost, the window gathering steam

with my longer efforts to manage words

free of design and warm like the heater

close to truth—

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Some songs need an invitation to dance,

some move YOU, My jam must be the

Gap Band because whatever they play that

simple sharp driving beat gets me going

and I’m liable to move, damn the rules

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I won’t be schooled, short of the advanced degree

I stopped to mess up, stop, smell the rose

wash my clothes, I paraded in my underwear

at least got close I cannot lie—

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So what, I was a thirty-three year old virgin,

yeah it was messed up, my girlfriend

was Coors Light, what’s wrong?

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Stand up, grab your crotch, sing a song

the comedy club wants your act

that I can guarantee that from

a guy’s best smack I’m DONE!!!!!!!!

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“Retire when the work is done!!!!!!!!”

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Good night!!!!!!!!

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